finally got Braveheart on DVD

disclaimer: dis is gonna b a total rambling entry...

finally got Braveheart on dvd yesterday..it is such a good movie..watched it again dis morning...itz juss truly amazin to c how William Wallace (da main character) tryin to make his dream into a reality..dis is wut i got from the movie..n how it relates to my life..

William Wallace though started his rebellion cuz the English official killed his wife...but it led to his dream of freedom for Scotland..which was under English ruled at the time...n da whole movie is about this dream of his..n how he tries to make it come tru...i tink often for me...dere r times when i will have a total surge of wantin to do sumthin..den it fades...cuz the passion fades....often i tink for a lot of us...the passion juss comes n goes...at one point in our lives we would really want sumthin to happen..n do wut we can to c it happen..but as the passion dies or when things don't go our way...we lose hope n give up....passion does come n go..but the dream will never die...i totally takes more commitment to make a dream to come tru than passion...tho passion might get u take ur first steps down dat path..it is commitment gets you thru the journey....it juss got me tinkin cuz in da beginning of dis summer...dere were a lot of things i wanted to c happen by the end of summer..den things happen...n my personal time juss get decreased extremely n da passion to follow thru juss dies...i tink itz often when things like dis happen ...change will never occur...n dream will never come tru..but the dream does not die..it NEVER dies...it is in each one of us...n it is for us to commit to it...n make it come tru...

so wut now ? it totally starts w/ dat dream..better yet..dat vision..vision to wut we want to c happen around us...more specifically it is God's vision for our lives..for our ministry...for our time here...it is knoin wut He has planned for us..wut He wants us to do...where He wants us to go...unless we have a vision we wouldnt even kno where to take our first step...we'll b lost...we given a sense of direction w/ dat vision...William Wallace had a dream he wanted Scotland to b freed...n everything he did...was focused on dat goal...no matter how hard the journey may b...he would not wander away from his path towards dat goal....once we got dat vision...it'll actually involves us to get into action.to move towards the goal...tho the journey mayb tough..mayb discouraging...seein His vision come tru will b worth every single step...every moment of hardship...i tink often i get discouraged a lot...becuz i do not c the fruits of the labor...juss teaching Sunday School the past yr..or helping out in JICC...sometimes it juss makes me wonder if i get thru the kids or not...or do dey even care about wut im sayin to dem...itz like spending so much time on sumthin..yet dere r no result..but itz endless work..n truly i kno i am wrong to tink dat way..n i tink juss from the last month's JICC event...my attitude has changed bout this...juss seein da children play their hardcore Bible quiz game...n hearin their answers to these questions..i mainly realized dat even tho i may not c the fruits of the labour rite away..it doesnt mean dere isnt n e ....n i cant expect immediate change to occur..all fruits take time to ripe...i juss gotta b patient..n joyful to kno dat God has used me in some way...heck Scotland gained their freedom after William Wallace died...

alrite im done writin on dis topic..sorry if my thoughts were all over the place...i kno itz pretty scattered..i juss wrote wuteva came into my mind....

thnx tracy...

so tracy has told me dat da quote from "Coach Carter" is actually part of a poem by Nelson Mandela...oh man..i suck..where here is the whole poem..the real deal..

Our Greatest Fear

Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate,
but that we are powerful beyond measure.

It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us.
We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant,
gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be?
You are a child of God.

Your playing small does not serve the world.
There is nothing enlightened about shrinking
so that other people won't feel insecure around you.

We were born to make manifest the glory of God within us.
It is not just in some; it is in everyone.

And, as we let our own light shine, we consciously give
other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our fear,
our presence automatically liberates others.

such a good movie...

bought the coach carter dvd today..hahaha itz so messed up.dey give u a free toque dat says "Coach Carter on DVD" on it..hahaha..but o well da movie is wicked...

here is one goooooood quote from it..

Coach Ken Carter: What is your deepest fear?
Timo Cruz: Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our dark that most frightens us. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people don't feel insecure around you.We are all meant to shine as children do. Its not just in some of us; its in everyone. And as we let our own lights shine, we unconsiously give other people to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.

happy father's day

well today wuz a hectic day at church...juss so much to do..running around...n so not good when my knee is still hurtin..i hope it heals on its own..n i didnt kill it or n ething..da kids made their own mud bricks today ..which means we totally dirty up the whole church..hahaha.

n e who..for father's day...went w/ another family to alice fazooli's...good restaurant...i tink my dad had a good time..since he totally pigged out...n like ordered everything..dessert..wine..da works...juss all da stuff dat he wont usually ordered if he was payin hahahaha...o well glad he had a good time eating...

juss remembered sumthin...

on monday nite at st.john...da kids were takin a break..so i was juss talkin w/ dem..n i notice one of the gurls were wearing one of those coloured bracelets with a message on it...her's was gray which i havent seen b4 so i asked to looked at it..the gurl gave it to me..n the bracelet says "imagine a cure"...den she starts tellin me how her fren has brain cancer and she is in the hospital...

itz sad how a kid have to think bout things like dese..n to have dat kind of stuff in their mind..but itz also so amazin to c how children can do wuteva dey can to help.man other ppl will have to tink bout if they got the time..or if they have the money...or this ..or that...but for a kid..dey juss do wut dey can w/o worryin bout other things...

o if only i can b like a kid again...

just juggling rite now..

alrite so June 12th is finally over...congratz to all the ppl that passed their BTS (Ken, Jeff, Richard, K n Lisa)..too bad i couldnt b dere w/ u guyz....glad dat the BBQ is over..juss a lot of aftermath stuff to do..which sharon is doin rite now..juss calculatin all the money stuff...

well so wutz next for tim ?
so here's the list of stuff i rmb i gotta do within the next couple of weeks or so...

st.john stuff:
- get plaques made
- july 8th -> Practice for 10th Anniversary Inspection
- july 9th -> actual inspection and banquet
- july 22nd- 24th -> Camp PJ
- write up course lesson plan for CPR Level C course
- find students and location to teach my course (anyone want to get a CPR Level C cert.?)

church stuff:
- prepare for each week's Exodus program
- CM Leadership Camp is coming soon in July
- Camp Hands-On and Sports Camp devos
- VBS Drama stuff (still pretty clueless about that)

school stuff:
- july 4th -> first day of summer skool
- contact the company about my internship

yah as u can tell..ive got a lot on my plate...n cuz of dat...sum compromises had to b made....n i kno so far..ive been in slackin in my st.john stuff..which is not good at all...juss so much to do within dese 2 weeks..aiya aiya...n now im debatin bout summer skool all together..mayb i should juss drop it..hmmmmmmm

so sorry for all those ppl dat ive kinda lost contact w/..n didnt spend time chillin w/ u guyz even tho i said i would dis summer..my bad my bad...

so much to do..so little time..

man so much to do w/ work at church lately..juss been so tired when i get home..i dont even want t o work on my other things dat needs to b done..which is basically screwing myself over l8r on...

im in desperate need of restttttttttttt...juss want a day of nothingness..for me to relax...

also...rite now..juss prayin for guidance from God...got a decision to make n juss dont know wut to do...n also..a few of us at scac seem to share dis burden inside us...dis burden for sumthin more at our church..hmmm...i tink we've done enuff talkin bout it..n sum action needs to take place...n one of the first thing we ought to do...is for God to move us...so we actually do sumthin bout it

lastly parents r leavin tml for cuba..for their annual vacation away from me n my bro..i hope dey have a blast..n of course a safe trip...